Sunday, February 16, 2014

Day 27, Mood Swings

The wife and I had a romantically enchanted Valentine's Day on Friday night that we both felt very honored to be a part of. Getting seats for Cinderella's Royal Table restaurant inside the Cinderella's Castle at Magic Kingdom is no easy task, but I struck gold and luck when I randomly checked the Disney dining reservations over 6 months ago and found out Disney had an opening at the Royal Table. Even better, it was on Valentine's Day! We were surrounded by 5 Disney princesses including Cinderella, Ariel, Jasmine, Princess Aurora and Snow White. And the food, holy smokes... Was top notch gourmet dining that you could only expect from Disney. The wife and I stayed for Wishes fireworks, and enjoyed several rides around the park before heading out around 11PM. We had a blast.

Saturday was a so-so kind of day. I have noticed some subtle changes in my mood swings and behavior, and even more heartbreaking for me, is that my wife gets the brunt of my Riba-Rage. The smallest of things I seem to snap at, definitely not me. Last night was kind of a reality check when I snapped on something so simple. It's getting a little monotonous, and I am so very blessed to have a loving wife who understands this pain from both sides, as a wife and a registered nurse. My wife has noted that within an hour or so after taking Ribavirin at night, after dinner, I zone out, and become lethargic and desensitized. It only lasts for about an hour, then fades away slowly, but this only occurs if I have a big meal before taking the Ribavirin. The food helps the medication to absorb faster into the bloodstream, so without food is typically a t 45% absorption rate, as with a fatty meal that rate increases to 75-80% of the drug absorption; according to online documentation. I go in for my 4 week viral load check in two days, on Tuesday! So excited for this, because deep down I already know the outcome.

At the end of the day, I am so very blessed people. Even though my head at times is jacked up, and I'm in a fog at nights, in just 5 more months, this fog will be lifted and I will be walking around a new man. God is so immeasurably good, and through the fire and sufferings, we are made whole, pure and shiny. Still drinking 64oz or more of water daily, and my appetite so far hasn't gone away. Before I close, I just want to take this time and thank the one person by my side who has seen my ups and downs while on this medication. My wife, alongside my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, is literally my rock and shoulder during this whole process. She motivates me, encourages, and at times gets under my skin to get me off my rear end to snap out of my state of lethargy. When you see my wife, you'll understand why, she's just special, and truly a real life angel walking on this green Earth. I do believe in angels, because I was fortunate to marry one.

1 comment:

  1. absolutely love you guys...and can't wait to see you again <3 all the best in the healing and TESTIMONY of God's love.